First things first, I sincerely apologize to my followers/readers/supporters because I haven't blogged in soooo long...since 2009 to be exact. And for that, I certainly 'smh' at myself, no excuses. Procrastination is definitely not a friend to anyone unwilling to accept the offer.
For some reason I am in a mood to just vent. It's "one of those Mondays"...I woke up feeling 'blah' about everything that came to mind. Life, bills, goals, worries, fears, responsibilities, and a load of other issues/concerns. I've been in a reflective mood for the past few weeks. Most people may say that's to be expected because we're still at the beginning of a new year, however, being in a reflective state isn't unusual for me or attributed to a specific time of year. So much has taken place in my life since my last blog. I'm almost overwhelmed just thinking about it. I recognized that my desire to write was slowly fading. Life had began to throw so many curve balls I grew weary of finding ways to either cope or take an alternative route. So, my most urgent desire to write gradually left with my confidence and seemingly my smile. I've lost some things in the past few years, but I've gained a lot as well (both tangible & intangible). I am expecting 2011 to be such an exceptional year. And I plan to contribute to that expectation every step of the way.
I admit that I've allowed entirely too much time to go by operating in fear and insecurity of my passion in life, which mostly consists of writing - marketing/pr - mentoring youth - etc... I've also allowed circumstances to nearly beat me to a pulp, to the point where I almost lost myself in the maze of it all. Internally I've always known that I walk to the beat of my own drum, and I haven't always been proud to embrace it. Be that as it may, externally, for quite some time now I've finally been able to look in the mirror and be proud of that. But that's another story for another blog (coming soon) :-) Seriously, the mind is truly the biggest battle field, and I thank God everyday for keeping me! Currently, I'm working on my first book in hopes to be completed AND released this year. It's about me growing up without an active father in my life. It talks about my ups, downs, struggles, fears, and eventually my victory in forgiveness and liberation! The primary purpose of the book is to inspire people all over the world who can relate to my story, and even those who can't relate directly, there's a message for you as well. I am also working on a book of poetry, amongst other great things to come this year. I am nervous but excited, a little scared but hopeful, overall I'm READY!!! Please stay tuned and I will stay right here... at *P3n Place*...until we meet&greet again...
For some reason I am in a mood to just vent. It's "one of those Mondays"...I woke up feeling 'blah' about everything that came to mind. Life, bills, goals, worries, fears, responsibilities, and a load of other issues/concerns. I've been in a reflective mood for the past few weeks. Most people may say that's to be expected because we're still at the beginning of a new year, however, being in a reflective state isn't unusual for me or attributed to a specific time of year. So much has taken place in my life since my last blog. I'm almost overwhelmed just thinking about it. I recognized that my desire to write was slowly fading. Life had began to throw so many curve balls I grew weary of finding ways to either cope or take an alternative route. So, my most urgent desire to write gradually left with my confidence and seemingly my smile. I've lost some things in the past few years, but I've gained a lot as well (both tangible & intangible). I am expecting 2011 to be such an exceptional year. And I plan to contribute to that expectation every step of the way.
I admit that I've allowed entirely too much time to go by operating in fear and insecurity of my passion in life, which mostly consists of writing - marketing/pr - mentoring youth - etc... I've also allowed circumstances to nearly beat me to a pulp, to the point where I almost lost myself in the maze of it all. Internally I've always known that I walk to the beat of my own drum, and I haven't always been proud to embrace it. Be that as it may, externally, for quite some time now I've finally been able to look in the mirror and be proud of that. But that's another story for another blog (coming soon) :-) Seriously, the mind is truly the biggest battle field, and I thank God everyday for keeping me! Currently, I'm working on my first book in hopes to be completed AND released this year. It's about me growing up without an active father in my life. It talks about my ups, downs, struggles, fears, and eventually my victory in forgiveness and liberation! The primary purpose of the book is to inspire people all over the world who can relate to my story, and even those who can't relate directly, there's a message for you as well. I am also working on a book of poetry, amongst other great things to come this year. I am nervous but excited, a little scared but hopeful, overall I'm READY!!! Please stay tuned and I will stay right here... at *P3n Place*...until we meet&greet again...
~Nia
Two things come to mind while reading ur blog! A sermon Pastor Dickson preached almost 9yrs ago while I was struggling to accept the call on my life to preach! The sermon entitled: "You Changed Your Mind, But God Didn't! And the old adage that says: "Delayed But Not Denied"!!! Daughter I'm so proud that you have looked internally & discovered that the biggest thing holding u back was YOU!! I"m Expecting this year to be a phenomenal year as well & I can't wait to read both books!! THIS YEAR!!! IT IS SO!! Do know that I love & support you ALL THE WAY!! WORLD GET READY FOR PURPOSE!!!!
ReplyDeleteWelcome back my prolific writer I've always enjoy reading whatever it was you wrote it has feeling of life blood in your words so I encourage you to not only get back to your book but finish it and watch how the thoughts will come together and you will write gracefully as an anointed writer should write.
ReplyDeleteAuntie, trust taht your NOT alone this has been one of the craziest months that I have ever experienced! knowing you and all your gifts there is greatness in you. If you give up where does that leave the ones who's lives you touch already (me and so many more) Giving up is NOT an option. Your my inspiration! I look up to you your a great person, your a great writer, your a great mentor, a great listener a great person in my opinion! Times you need someone to vent to or just a simple laugh you know im here and I love your life!!! "Boom
ReplyDeleteThis is my first tym blog'n....kinda happy bout it too but enuff about me....I am so very humbled and proud of U rite now u could be strung out on drugs have a house full of babies and a bunch of baby daddy drama but ur not ur head is on str8 & for that reason i am proud....everything in life is in a season plowing, planting, watering, and harvesting....you will eventually reap the harvest that u desire. I cant wait until the book is published even if it mean we got 2 make a gazillion copies on a copy machine a staple them ourselves and sell them on the corner of Broad & market im going to blow it up 2 any and everybody that will listen. when u make it to the NY best sellers list raking in the money doing the book signing @barnes and Noble living all high on the hog jus remember lil old me i'll be happy to be the dog walker or the maid....LOL!!!...LOV & Extremely proud to know ur part of my family!!!(happy Tearz)!!! Luv U!!
ReplyDeletewow, it is always good to vent, letting things out, letting somethings go and also letting out the things you need to hear so that what was voiced and return to your heart. You spoke of fear, and I am so glad to you decided to post on that as well. Far to many times in our journey because of fear, we do not fully reach our potential or it is delayed. I would say that it is all apart of God's plan, it just a good place to be when you realize were you are, who you are and even where you want to be. In this last day, like most months I reflect on what God has done and then I take time to focus on who he is in my life, and seek to make more plans and goals and allow God to take control. Even when somethings may not happen, I still believe, allowing God to lead me and as a result I do things unimagineable. I call it "steping out on purpose", when we are not fearful, but boldly going after what we can not see or have a clue as to what the outcome maybe. It is ULTIMATELY A FAITH WALK in everthing we do.
ReplyDeleteInsightful Blog! I pray the Best for you this Year. Sometimes we don't realize that just as well as we live natirally in seasons... we do also spiritually... It's all about take things a step at a time whether it be walking in purpose or making our way back to surface. Keep doing ya thing! U have my Support. P1.
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Loving the blog sis! Very insightful and full of meaning! Do your thing this year! I know God will do it for ya! =DG
ReplyDeleteBeautiful, honest, and sincere; something that people fail to emit in their lives. No matter what...remain encouraged to do all that God has placed within you to do, and to be all that God has called you to be. You are not only a friend, but an inspiration to me; perhaps because we share some of the same passions. Keep up the good work! I'm rooting you on all the way! Love ya! - Doona
ReplyDeleteI'm a man of my word lol Sounds like you got some big things going on. I hope you accomplish all of them!
ReplyDeleteI love this. I think a lot of us like many of us struggle with some of the same things, as the other comments has also stated. I think reading your blog gives ppl like me comfort in knowing that I'm not alone in my struggles and a reassurance that there is nothing new under the sun but at the same time, it makes me want to overcome! Keep sharing b/c you're inspiring others!
ReplyDeleteP.S. I just learned that we have some of the same passions...that's incredible! lol
Sis, I want to first say, CONGRATULATIONS! Congratulations on reviving the pen of your heart and trusting the page to hold your most valuable thoughts. Congratulations on fleshing through the dimming of a desire you know you must do for your life to make sense. You know sometimes our heart's desire can be a heavy burden because our desire/purpose is our greatest responsibility. Congratulations on meeting the challenge of your internal battle with blood and ink.
ReplyDeleteSecondly, I want you to know that you can't run away from what's in you because no matter where you run to, it'll be right there because....it's IN you!!! I love you and I want you to know that I will be one of your biggest fans and will support you! Keep writing....just keep writing.
I think this year is going to be a turning point for everyone. Last year, a lot of us LOST a lot including losing ourselves. I look forward to seeing great things from you Nia in the year 2011. Keep pushing, God's got something in store for you.
ReplyDeleteTHIS IS OUR YEAR! You said it yourself and you've taken hold to that! I'm so proud of you for stepping out onto the water and not taking your eye off the prize. I applaud you for taking risks with your heart, speaking freedom through your pen, and realizing your purpose to influence the world! love you girl and looking forward to seeing you BLOW UPPPPP!!!! :-)
ReplyDeleteYAY!! This is a beautiful re-introduction! Please keep writing and following your dreams! love ya!
ReplyDeleteso glad that you are getting back to YOU hun! it is so very easy to allow life to happen YET forget to LIVE. God called us a "peculiar people" and He also said that FEWWWW are "chosen." So the next time you feel like you're walking to a beat that no one else hears, just remember you are being EXACTLY what He called you to be! You're different. EMBRACE it! Its who you were PURPOSED to be ;-)
ReplyDeletelove you lil sis! mmmwuah!
-Danielle
Good job love can't wait to read more :-)
ReplyDeleteI can't wait for BOTH books to be released ...especially the one containing your poetry. I've always felt as though you have a way with words even though I haven't read too many of your pieces. I'm excited for you & I'll definitely bo on the look out!
ReplyDeleteMy Dear Little Sister! What a brilliant light you are! A scripture comes to mind: "They overcame by the Blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony". Every word you type in this blog is another thread woven in your Overcomer Tapestry. It is a beautiful. The many responses on here are proof of the favor surrounding this. Go forth in authority dearest! Continue to light the way for those that are needing to see their way Home. I love you and am ever so proud of you! ~Big Sis aka Royale
ReplyDeleteWelcome Back to the literary forum....Last year took a lot out of us, and in that we lost sight on the important things. Beautifully written in truth. I pray that this year holds so much that it will blow your mind. Great Read. I am not subscribed to you and look forward to reading more. I have started to blog myself. We'll see where that goes.
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